5 pregnancy tests & 10 month anniversary

So in all I have taken 5 pregnancy tests. All have given me faint lines. So I am not doubting that I am pregnant, but with the spotting off and on I am just praying it is a sticky one! I am going to give it a few days and test again and hopefully my hormone levels are higher and more easily detected. I refuse to let myself get excited right now. I just can't. I want this so bad and am afraid it will get taken away from me.

Today also marks 10 months since my boys passed away. I just can not believe it has been almost a year. I should be preparing for their first birthday party, instead I am planning on how I will honor them and remember them. There is no other way of putting it...it sucks.

I really would love to release a few sky lanterns on their birthday, does anyone know where I can find those? I can't seem to find any around here.

Well, I guess that is it. Thank you for all the supportive and loving comments on my last post, it really does mean so much to me. I will update in a few days when I test again.


*I love and miss you so much Bryston and Colton*